I am killing a part of me!

 

I am killing a part of me!

I am not blaming u baby, no I am not. I m sorry for myself. You are just like others. Others whom I loved little less than I love you. Others who are wonderful like you. Others who were the most important people in my life, but every one left me didn't they? Didn't I complain about every one to you? Even you replayed the element. Of course you have a reason and I understand it completely but didn't they? Even they had reasons. What mattered to me is they left. What matters now is u left. You say you love me, don't I? I love you much more than what you love me. I feel that agony much more than you do.

You said you get tears when you text me. But do you know that I cry wen ever I come across anything that reminds me of you? And can you imagine how much of my life reminds me of you? I cry when I read your texts. I cry when I walk on streets. I cry when I visit any place I ever visited with you. I cry when I eat anything we ever ate together. I cry when people talk about missing someone. I cry when my phone rings and somewhere my heart hopes its you, even though I assured it many times that you are quite busy to remember me. I cry wen I dream about you. I cry wen I remember anything related to you. 

Do you realize the change in me? Wen you read this just confront yourself. I stopped fighting. I stopped complaining. I stopped expecting. I stopped gaining your attention. I stopped disturbing. I am letting you be. I am not holding you back. You think I m not in pain? I am but this pain is familiar to me. It happened all the time and it is happening now. My faith in you is fading. I am killing a part of me. Yes I am, and I am not blaming you at all. I love you like I love no one else. I love you the way poets describe. I love you the way lyricist articulate. I love you like movies show. I love you like painters display. I love u like I can. I love much more.