I din't wanted it to happen. I was a girl who always wanted to grow up. I wanted to wear nice clothes, shop on ma own and live alone. I wanted to earn money. I want to be the only commander of my life.
I dunno y the child in me never died. I act as though i try to understand others or may be compromise or some times even try to solve others problems. I act as if i am matured enough to understand complicated things. I give an impression to others that i can handle things on my own. The fact is I cant do any of these. I still feel like an adolescent. I still love vibrant colors like pink and red though i try to wear boring (classy and sophisticated) colors like black and light blue etc. I still love to eat a lollipop than oat meal. I still love to make lather out of soap. I still like to open and close my fridge. I still walk in squares of the tiles wen i feel like. I still like to comb a barbie.
I want to eat horlicks when ever i can. I can forget about calories wen i see a candy. I feel like riding a bicycle wen ever i see it. I eat Jam without my mom noticing it. I love to play with kids because i feel like i am one of them. I love getting pampered. I love some one putting me to sleep. I still like some one feeding me. I like surprises and gifts. I love being taken care of. I like when people treat me like a fragile doll. I prefer cute and beautiful to sexy and hot. I prefer ice cream to coffee.
I still want to depend on some one for everything i do. Wen i hang out with friends, i want every hangout to be as noisy and as fun filled as it could be but now we hang out mostly for quite lunches. I sometimes never knew how i grew up into an adult from a teenager, I feel like the time went by and the actual me never changed at all. I know when i meet the man of my life, he cant handle me. May be he will try to give his best in the beginning but later on i am sure he cant put up with me. I will have to act all my life like a responsible adult. One day, wen i will eat a spoon of cerelac from my grandson's bowl without any one noticing it, i will look at myself in the mirror and say
"Not bad, u could have been a great actress!"
I dunno y the child in me never died. I act as though i try to understand others or may be compromise or some times even try to solve others problems. I act as if i am matured enough to understand complicated things. I give an impression to others that i can handle things on my own. The fact is I cant do any of these. I still feel like an adolescent. I still love vibrant colors like pink and red though i try to wear boring (classy and sophisticated) colors like black and light blue etc. I still love to eat a lollipop than oat meal. I still love to make lather out of soap. I still like to open and close my fridge. I still walk in squares of the tiles wen i feel like. I still like to comb a barbie.
I want to eat horlicks when ever i can. I can forget about calories wen i see a candy. I feel like riding a bicycle wen ever i see it. I eat Jam without my mom noticing it. I love to play with kids because i feel like i am one of them. I love getting pampered. I love some one putting me to sleep. I still like some one feeding me. I like surprises and gifts. I love being taken care of. I like when people treat me like a fragile doll. I prefer cute and beautiful to sexy and hot. I prefer ice cream to coffee.I still want to depend on some one for everything i do. Wen i hang out with friends, i want every hangout to be as noisy and as fun filled as it could be but now we hang out mostly for quite lunches. I sometimes never knew how i grew up into an adult from a teenager, I feel like the time went by and the actual me never changed at all. I know when i meet the man of my life, he cant handle me. May be he will try to give his best in the beginning but later on i am sure he cant put up with me. I will have to act all my life like a responsible adult. One day, wen i will eat a spoon of cerelac from my grandson's bowl without any one noticing it, i will look at myself in the mirror and say
"Not bad, u could have been a great actress!"
