Realisation!

Realisation for me is nothing but waking up from a dream and actually seeing reality. It feels horrible in the beginning but it makes you stronger to face the reality. Every thing seems right until this realisation comes and then you will know that all your theories and perceptions are completely wrong. You will get a better view of all the blurred images in your mind.

Realisation hurts you some times because may be it shows you the facts you don't want to see. Some times you become aware of things you never thought even in your worst nightmares. Sometimes you will come to know that all the bad things are assumptions and you will find solace and happiness when you realise few things. Realisation sometimes is like missing a lottery with a single number and sometimes like missing a road accident by an inch. I dont know whether realisation is a good thing or a bad one, I know that it knows when to come and when it does you just have to watch the consequences.

Everybody have a heart which has feelings, when will it realise that you should not be happy for momentarily things and when will it realise that it should not fill our eyes with tears for some things which are not meant for us. I know this little fact but still I somehow dont want to believe and face reality. I want someone to face all the problems for me. I know I can face them alone and survive but still. Everybody know how important hard work is to achieve success but some where deep down don't we all want some magic to happen??

Realisation is a start to a truth but also an end of a possibility we nourished.  

Hope!

So hope huh? I never believed the word hope. Not my fault you see, life was never hope full it was always hope less for me. Every time i started hoping for something good it turned out to be very pain full. When every thing starts beautifully and grows happily i started hoping that it would be like this forever. My mistake. Things change. People Change. Situations change. Relationships Change. It definitely ends up badly. My hope is crushed into pieces. My hope is vanished. I was always left in despair. I was left in tears. I was left in depression.

When ever life was being good to me i never hoped for something better, I always hoped it to be the same. I hoped it would not become worst and yet again the history repeated. Eventually, Like every normal human does, i stopped hoping. Things did not work, it seemed to me that even though i hoped or not, slaughter of my happiness never changed. I started hating life. I started hating Hope. I started thinking that it would end up badly before even it started. Did it help? Obviously because things were going exactly how i knew. Things were beautiful at the scratch and turned out to be worst at the ending. Pain was becoming normal actually i was getting habituated to it. Things dint change only in this aspect, so there was no reason for me to change too.

Miracles happen in every body's life. problem is our eyes are filled with tears and our vision becomes too vague to visualize and believe it. I was always worried about the hand which left me in despair but i never noticed another shoulder on which i was leaning and cursing life. I never noticed the support of the shoulder which did not allow me to fall. I never noticed the shoulder of hope. The moment i realized the miracles that happened to me all along my life i was actually thank full to life, to hope and to all the devastating things which gave me miracles. I realized i should never leave the hand of hope because even though i gave up on it, It never gave up on me.

To the best miracle ever happened to me!

FreeZed at 17!

I din't wanted it to happen. I was a girl who always wanted to grow up. I wanted to wear nice clothes, shop on ma own and live alone. I wanted to earn money. I want to be the only commander of my life.

I dunno y the child in me never died. I act as though i try to understand others or may be compromise or some times even try to solve others problems. I act as if i am matured enough to understand complicated things. I give an impression to others that i can handle things on my own. The fact is I cant do any of these. I still feel like an adolescent. I still love vibrant colors like pink and red though i try to wear boring (classy and sophisticated) colors like black and light blue etc. I still love to eat a lollipop than oat meal. I still love to make lather out of soap. I still like to open and close my fridge. I still walk in squares of the tiles wen i feel like. I still like to comb a barbie.

I want to eat horlicks when ever i can. I can forget about calories wen i see a candy. I feel like riding a bicycle wen ever i see it. I eat Jam without my mom noticing it.  I love to play with kids because i feel like i am one of them. I love getting pampered. I love some one putting me to sleep. I still like some one feeding me. I like surprises and gifts. I love being taken care of. I like when people treat me like a fragile doll. I prefer cute and beautiful to sexy and hot. I prefer ice cream to coffee.

I still want to depend on some one for everything i do. Wen i hang out with friends, i want every hangout to be as noisy and as fun filled as it could be but now we hang out mostly for quite lunches. I sometimes never knew how i grew up into an adult from a teenager, I feel like the time went by and the actual me never changed at all. I know when i meet the man of my life, he cant handle me. May be he will try to give his best in the beginning but later on i am sure he cant put up with me. I will have to act all my life like a responsible adult. One day, wen i will eat a spoon of cerelac from my grandson's bowl without any one noticing it, i will look at myself in the mirror and say

"Not bad, u could have been a great actress!"

Bliss of my life!

I sat in my Time Traveler Machine. I was little confused. My Time machine only allowed me to travel through my life. I decided i will choose my past actually i was a little terrified to peep in to my future. The next moment i selected past option on the screen, it displayed 'TYPE THE MOMENT U WISH TO SEE_' Now, i was wondering what to type! Most embarrassing moment or most painfull moment then i thought since my present is however painfull i should try happier moments so i typed most blissful moment of my life.

Bliss of my life!

The machine started and i could feel i was light like feather. I was floating like a bubble. With in seconds i found my self in a small room der was a girl who was busy doin something on a computer. Ofcourse i know her so well. It was swetha. I could feel a sence of happiness and excitement in me. OMG so dis is the most blissful moment of my life?? The day i met her? Truly beautiful. I could hear some one climbing the steps. I was invisible to every one obviously because i was in my past. Two girls emerged from the door. One was me and the other was a mutual friend of me and swetha. She introduced me to her and i could see my face lighting up.

I knew swetha before i met her. I heard a lot about her from my friend. I, in the past, was in a hurry i left the house. I was again lighter and floated to the next meet and so on. I saw all my moments with swetha in a sequel. I came back and landed in my Time traveller. What did all this meant? She was the bliss of my life. She still is.

Swetha is the only girl i ever met who can be described using perfect antonyms. For example u can say swetha is an independent girl. she is completely dependent on her family and friends or swetha is a calm, composed and a pleasant human being. swetha is short tempered.
I generally dont like girls easily. For me to compliment a girl is alwaya like a rare element But wen it comes to swetha i just do it so often and so genuinely. Swetha is one girl i would love to see beautiful more beautiful dan me. Wen it comes to swetha i try to give her the best. We have been friends since four long years now. Thinking all this i switched off my machine and moved towards my room.

Finally!!!!

heyy every one! Ok.... Dis is one post dat i am writing with lots of happiness.....i just cant tell u how happy i am....For the first time in my life i feel like i m goin to run out of words to explain about one girl, Sohni Tabassum.....she is such a sweety.....!

lemme go to the scartch of all this....Sohni Tabassum....i still laugh wen i think of da day we bcame friends....she and i had a mutual friend who was den flirting with both of us and i dint know dat....She some how came to know and directly contacted me and we discussed.....i still remember the flow of gaali's she gets wen shez angry....but i donno how WE bcame friends from no wer....we texted each other and spoke on phone and chatted on Facebook. We spoke about so many things understood each other's problems...u know wats the best thing abt her...shez three years younger to me but wen i m low...she acts like i am three years younger to her!!!

One day she proposed me....ho-ho...we are straight....but both of us are little mad (actually lot more dan little) so, we just thought of changing our relation ship status in Facebook and den we both had a very gud chance showing our utter craziness....One thing dat makes me love her is her way of expressing things....everything is like a peak to her...if she loves u she wont leave any bloody way to show u dat...and wen she hates u know how it is :) Shez totally mad....obssesd with little things but dat is wat makes her spl....Shez a surprise package....No No...Shez an energy packet......I have never seen any girl with so much of energy...I used to think emotions are at peaks for me...i mean if i am happy den i am super happy....if i am sad i am super sad.....i m never a little happy or a little down...and Dis girl is exactly da same.....

Do u how it feels wen some one shouts at the top of the voice dat dey love u....Yeahh i know and dat is wat we do...I love my Facebook just bcoz of her....She fills my wall with so much of love dat my mood simply changes....I can discuss any stupid stuff and u know wat do we discuss abt mostly....John abraham, shahid kapoor, hrithik roshan etc.... Shez da one who can bring happiness into any body's life.....Life will not b just happy but it will be super exciting....like a roller-coaster ride....lyk sky diving....like an adventurous sport.....i still dont understand y she is single....!!! well guys can never understand which girl is gud...dey end up with sluts and bcome philosophers...poor men!!! If Sohni Tabassum was a guy i would do any damn thing just to get maried to her.... shez so perfect and pure dat i can spend the rest of the life happily with her....shez an angel...shez crazy....shez stewpid....shez mad....shez sohni.....have u seen a girl who dedicate a beautiful song to u and post it on ur wall??? can u imagine how it feels wen u open ur facebook with a sad face and find something lyk dat?? did u see a girl fighting for u...??? dat is sohni...an extremely crazy-beautiful girl!!!

we are friends since last year....but i met her today finally i saw my lovely friend...every time we wanted to meet....some or the other thing happend and this meeting got delayed.....she is so beautifull....i never felt so happy admitting another girl is more gud luking dan me :) i feel kinda proud and happy....i guess its only bcoz its sohni on the other side....

this onez for u sohni...baby i donno how to tell u wat i feel today...u r just too good.....i hope our friendship lasts for ever....i would love to spend my life with u....love u baby :)

WeN u LoVe A gIrL!!!!!

WEN U LOVE A GIRL.....
u can see her day and night and still feel heaven......u can do any goddamn thing just to talk to her....u can accept her beyond all the impossibilities.....u can make her fall in love with u....u can do anything to make her happy....u can crush all ur dreams to full fil hers...u can kill some one, rob a bank and even do the boldest thing to make her happy....u can get down to ur knees even infront ur parents, teacher, best friends and in a crowd....u will always make her fall in love with u freshly again every day....


WEN U LOVE A GIRL
u will let her do anything she wants and u will act according to her wish....u will say sorry even if its her mistake...u will fight against the world to not let that little tear to drop down....u can convince whole world dat she is the most prettiest girl....u will feel shez precious....u will feel shez like a little kid....u will never restrict her....u will take care of her wen shez drunk....u never say ur friends dat she smokes....u will tell so high about her dat ur parents will like her the moment dey see her....u will see the little purity in her heart in a magnifying glass and will be proud of it....u will never let her cry and wen she is crying u will never leave her alone and say stop ur action, instead u will hug her and say its ok, no matter wat i will stay with u..... u will never let her know how ppl talk about her....u always make her feel like ur princess..... u will be a true man go talk to her parents and ask her hand....

WEN U LOVE A GIRL
u will love all her over acting...u will realise its only "U" shez having...u will never let her go...u will remember her every day....u will make sure she remembers u with a smile on her face every single day...u will make sure love dosent seem fading out...u will try new ways to show ur love....u will never make her feel sorry for loving u.....u will try ur best dat she proudly present u infront of her friends...u will make sure all her friends are jealous of her becoz shez having "u"....if u see or listen about an accident on road u make sure shez even though u r pretty sure she is at home watching television.....if u see her after 10 days u will go run and hug her even at a traffic signal.....to spend a stupid 4 days vacation with her u submit ur resignation bcoz u wer not given leave....u wil never force her for anything....u give her enuf space so dat she even have her friends and family.....u will never allow any moron to mis behave with her....u will make sure she thinks of u as a superman....

WEN U LOVE A GIRL
u dont mind holding her hand forever...u dont mind listening to her silly stuff like her chapped nailpolish, how boring her other friends look ( who actually seem beautiful to u)....u will never ask her to understand ur so much complicated problem instead u will try ur best to understand her......u will never point out her mistakes in an argument instead u will slowly explain wat was wrong....u will never be in a position wer she says " wish i never met u/ i never loved u"

wen u cant do all dis....den please dont say u love a girl.....wen u expect the same from her den please dont even try....bcoz it takes a great deal of effort and patince to love a girl and make sure she dosent fall out of love with u....

NostalgiC!!!

Thanku every one for being so supportive...it feels so great to listen to ur feed backs :)

Okay, Coming To dis post...its about one of my bestie Akhila....Let me travel back in to my memories and tell u the day exactly i met her...It was in the month of September , 2006...I was in my engineering college....It was on the orientation day...a day wer u get a brief info about ur college, staff, subjects etc....obviously i hated the college at the first sight of it...Low class, i whispered in my sister's ears...She giggled. i heard the same giggling some wer behind turned around to look, i saw a girl looking at me, talking to her friend and laughing. I was confused. I dint see her untill den! 5 min later wen i looked back i saw my gran pa talking to her cheerfully...He den called me and introduced us...she said "Hai", i replied "Hi, Dis is mounika". Surprisingly she said "i know, u r from narayana juniour college right? even i m from der and i saw u in college".

From den we wer like meant to be friends.....Every day for the next four years we wer together.... We never gave space to any other person to enter into our world... Of-course we had other friends...but both of us wer like a spl pack...We shopped, ate gossiped and did almost everything together....We had hell lot of things to talk about hair cuts, new fashions, new clothes, new foot wear, boys and wat not. I donno how but i could control her...I could make her laugh wen she is depressed...I could cool her down wen she was hyper....I donno y but sometimes i acted like her guardian...We fought...We had cold wars...We used to be rude to each other sometimes...but wen some one was against any of us, we used to forget everything and fight back together.... We recieved punishments together....We studied together....We copied together...We wer caught together....

We did things which wer a lot more dan just funny....actually we experimented with life....Can u blieve it, we ate haleem brought from a road side cafe and ate it on road? Ppl wer shocked and stared at us as though we are not humans. We wer the only girls about whom complete faculty sat and discussed how to punish in the entire college....We fought on road near abids and came back individually on our own.....We bunked our college together and went to a film (DON)... We almost celebrated every ocassion together....We spent every holiday together...We wer best friends...I mean we are best friends....wen college ended. she was ready to get her higher education after all she was a topper at studies ...She flied to the united states leaving me with her memories and I still remember the way i slept dat night...my pillow might have remembered it too, it had a shower dat night....

Who said memories fade?? If dey did, den y are mine not fading?? May be dey are just not memories...May be dat was actually a life...or May be she was so beautiful dat my memories never thought of getting replaced with another ones....We still talk...We still gossip...We still share dat bond...and i m just waiting her to return back.....

This one is For u Aks.....I m glad u gave me all dis beautiful memories...I would give up anything and everything to re-live all dose days we wer together!!! Love u dear...i miss u soo much....!!!!

Wish List!!!!

heya every one...i have been reading various blogs about different kind of things....true inspiration indeed....i can c thousands of confident and determined bloggers.

"WISH LIST", every human being has a wish list...
things dey dream about....
places dey want to visit....
life dey want to lead....
so here is a wish list i want to fullfill...this list dosenot have all my wishes just ones which are little important....
The One's Which Are Done :
1. Smoking
2. Drinking Alcohol
3. Shopping in CHEMISTRY
4. Getting Drenched In RAIN
5. Pose like A Model To a Photographer
6. Try New Hair Styles
7. Sneak out From home At late night
8. Spend all my pocket Money just on Clothes
9. Buy Foot wear of Every colour
10.Watching My fav Actors Film 1st day Mrng show.....

The One's Which Are Yet To Be Full Filled:

1. Get thinner, skinng almost weigh 43-45

2. wear a Shorts like dis one

3.Buy a MOBILE PHONE (fulfilled, got a gift)

4. Get a job. Earn Money! (fullfilled)

5. Get a hair colour (dis Hair colour)  done!! got another one which suits my complexion but fulfilled!!!

6. Get a tattoo

7. Wear a prom gown. look gorgeous

8. Get a Silver anklet

9. Navel piercing

10. Buy aviator Sun Glasses Got more than one by now

11. Eat Every item on a menu card In any Restaurant
(i mean not at once but complete it eventually)

12. Go on a holiday trip with buddies

13. spend a Whole day reading a book in A bathroom Like dis

14. Dance untill i cant Thanks to Akhila, I finished it.

15. Stay independent...ALONE

16. Have CLOSET full of CLOTHES There is no place left in my closet now. Done!

17. Sleep whole night in a CAR (homeless)

18. Sleep on A BEACH and read Romeo Juliet

19. Visit Juliet's balcony in verona

20. Be a SINGLE MOM of a baby GIRL

i donno how many i m goin to complete by the time i die....i m goin to try my best to finish everything off.... wat are ur wishes???

F.R.I.E.N.D

Hey everyone...Back after a long time...Dis time with a happy post...I am out of my depression...So... FRIEND... Every body have ur own opinions and defnitions...For some dey are life...For some dey add color to life....For few more dey complete life...But for ME...Who else do i have???
No...No...No....I am not gonna discuss about friends...Nahi...I am goin to discuss about just one important and special friend....He is important because he is very understanding and he is special because he understands before u even talk about ur problem...
i know...We meet our friends often, We keep in touch 24*7 and We text and call wen ever possible...But how many of u have friends who dont talk everyday but still care abt u??? how many of u have friends who are away without contact for days but still want u to b happy??? how many of u have friends who are physically away but mentally right beside u to support u???

i have ONE!

well, to start with...we met as a normal friends...long chats and funny talks...he supported me wen i was in a worst stage of moi life...actually no...he scolded the other person along with me...dats true support isnt it??? wen ever i m sad...he used to ask me wat happend? wen i told him my problem he always consoled me...supported me and told me things would be fine some day...he know exactly wat is running in my brain and y! U leave us in a mall and i am sure we pick up things which are almost alike...i donno how we have almost same taste...!!! his name is Rakesh Reddi...well i call him ROCKeysh because hez my ROCK STAR!!!

Rocksy, u r my best friend...i dont want to know the worst in u...i accept u da way u are...bcoz u do da same...u never told me to change...u never had issues with me...and today is ur birthday...i am glad u walked into my life and made it happier....thanku....

WISH U A VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

remember u are always moi ROCK STAR!!!

Depression!

i donno wether anyone blogged abt such a topic before.I dont think anyone else could have been depressed like me....i dont want to tell u anything in dis post, just want u to know how it feels wen u r depressed...starting with let me tell u y do i get depressed...many reasons come under dis like wen i dont get something i desperately want, wen my favourite ppl avoid me, wen somebody abuses me more dan i just cant take and wen some one say if my parents had a boy instead of me.Den i get depressed....

nxt phase would b horrible....i cry...untill i drain all tears out of my eyes....untill dey swell....untill i get tired of wiping my tears and just allow dem to fall through my cheeks.
I dont feel like talking to anyone. My apetite dies, i forget how to chew and just swallow food.It taste like water absolutely taste less....i feel lyk throwing up wen i eat more dan 2 spoons.... i dont care abt how i look...i sometimes dont do my hair for days....dont wash my face....dont apply any sort of cosmetics...i hate to watch myself in mirror....and wen i stare at mirror i feel lyk throwing something at dat and smash it to peices....i hate light...i dont want to open the windows and doors...no fresh air....

i get horrible vissions...mostly dat a cat is so close to me staring at me...lot of cats around and as though dey are just about to attack....every ni8 i just get up shouting trembling with fear and shaking....it takes hell lot of time to sleep properly again.... i feel terribly lonely...though i am at a party i feel neglected...i fel i dont matter to ppl anymore...i try to gain attention and if i fail...i stop talking to everyone....

bein like dis for few days...suddenly i eat lot of sweet....chocolates, icecream and anything which is sweet...i feel a kind of relief wen something very sweet touches my tounge. it heals some part den gradually i come out...actually i push out of dat stage...

ppl say lot of love and care is required to get out of depression but if der was so much love and care y would i get depressed??? i wish god gave everything we want...i wish we only remember god just to thank him and not to ask or weep infront of him...i wish i get wat all i wantand never b in such a state...i wish u get wat all u want too....and der is no such a word called DEPRESSION!!!

Compromise!

i donno abt u....but i hate dis word!!!! Wen ever it comes in the scene i feel lyk throwing up.....puke!!! I feel compromising is ntg but killing a part of ur happiness or ur deepest desire. It can never make u happy...wen u say u cannot live without compromising??? I say...wat is left to live wen u have to compromise?

Wat is COMPROMISING??
according to me wen u want to do something, wen u wish to go some wer or any kind of desire and u dont do it, u leave it unwillingly and wen u still have da passion...u still have da desire, but u kill it....not for urself but for others dat is a compromise...bcoz wen u do it 4 urself dat is adjustment or simply call it a choice....u chose one over the other based on ur flexibility but wen u suffer and u do it bcoz the society wont accept it or some aunt muriel will think bad abt u and ur family den its called a compramise!

i hate to do dat.....let go something i so deeply want for some x i hardly care.....i hate wen i have no choice but to compromise...it kills a part of me.....i hate it wen ppl tell u have no choice but to compramise....damn it wat did i ask for MOON? no, i just wanted to fulfill my dreams....live life on ma own terms....and y do u say wen u are a girl u should compramise??? are we not human like u? dont we get the same blood wen it cuts?

y cant u accept us da way we are? y ask us to do something we dont want to? y force us? y kill? y throw us into dis kind of mental torture? cant u just say....i love da way u are, u dont have to change 4 me....u can follow ur heart and i will b der to hold u forever??? i am not goin to compromise unless u make it into a choice :) i wont compramise unless i feel u r more imp dan all my wishes and hapiness....and if had to compromise i wont b happy...i will feel da pain untill i get back to follow ma heart :)

love me da way i am :) puhh-leeees :)

move on!!!

Back after a long gap....I know i always wanted to write but i just couldn't think of anything to share....No pleasant mind too....so here i am after a huge gap with a meaningful post

i don't know whether anyone of u ever thought i would write something like dis....u have always seen me smiling...ppl ask me sometimes "do u ever cry?" okay now lets c da inner side....i am not ashamed saying dat i am sensitive...yea even i am a human i cry....i cry wen ppl i love dont care 4 me...i cry wen dad scold...i cry wen i dont get something....i cry wen my close frnd shouts at me.....i cry wen vinky is rude to me....

MOVE ON....word easily said but difficult to practice....moving on is not just from a person to person....moving on is moving from dat situation from dat pain and from dat mood. i donno wether it happens only with me or every body but i get comforted only wen it is by the person who is da reason for it. Few years ago a frnd told me dat ...To get out of a pain u need have more pain of different kind....she said if u have a cut on ur hand u feel the pain of it and wen u have a fracture at dat time u forget abt the little cut and think of broken leg....i know WILD  isnt it? but i followed it....wen ever i was depply hurt i used to get a equally deep cut on ma wrist...it worked.... i forgot abt dat and moved on to ma wrist.

by the time i realised wat i was doin it was not late....my sis gave me so much love told me dat i was so imp so nxt time wen i tried hurting ma self i just couldnot....her face came to ma mind everytime i tried and den i just couldnot continue...but i din't know how to get dat pain out of me....tears wer just not enuf....so i used to get depressed live life with no colour, no fud, no new clothes, no proper care and absolutely stop talking to every one for few days.

:)

wen life was goin on dis way, just few months ago, i got a frnd and he bcame imp....i believe to like a person and to hate a person u have a reason for sure....even i do and dat is i felt like i lived a dream i always wanted even though it was just for a short span of time just bcoz of him.....and the next was though he never consoled me, flirt me, or just blindly supported me in everything and instead of being super practical and pointing out my mistakes, he has a different style of comforting and cheering me up. Nothing was FALSE or FAKE in dat.... every word
was true....lucky na??? i know i know!!

few days back he told me a way....he said wen ever u r hurt by some one just think dat he/she is less matured dan u and u r a step ahead of dem and u UNDERSTAND ....simple....i tried.....it worked.....every next time ppl hurted me....i just laugh and think "how immature!!!!!" and just MOVE ON  to a better thing....and den everything seemed so simple and better....smile dont fade out so easily  now....even if  it did hez just a call away isnt it?
and i have nothing to give him back....so here is a small dedication for him....i dedicate dis little post to him for his enormous crazynezz.....

wat else?

dats all....take his free advice and get benifited and  pray for his success and our frndship in return!

simple

 isn't it???? 

FLIRTING

ok ok dont b mad at me for such a topic......i donno y we have a feel dat flirts are bad guys and all....as though dey are play boys and dey are meant to cheat.....well c dis with my eyes now.....

wen u feel low or say wen u r depressed....u really dont like people who r practical and speak the truth at dat time......u prefer a person who say a sweet harmless lie and make u smile.....

u want a person who stare at ur dumb face and say...OMG how beautiful....some one who hear ur awfull song and say this is the sweetest voice i have evr heard.....some one like a dad who looks at his little daughter's scribbing and say "MARVELLOUS". flirts are the best in da world....dey never make u cry...dey never hurt u....dey say sorry even wen its ur mistake.....dey always give u a support....

and the best part is dey make u feel special....dosent dey? dey like every thing u do.....u look at dem, u scratch ur head, u sneeze anything ....dey compliment it whole heartedly....dey know dey are lying but the intentions are not wrong.....dey dont take ur advantage....dey boost up ur confidence...

its all just 4 dis smile :)

and dont tell me u dont know wen a guy is flirting....common u know abt urself and wen a guy flirts u, u will know hez flirting but y is dat u dont stop talking to him or u dont stop texting?? isnt it true dat u love it wen u r flirted by some one....? u like it wen u r complimented?

isnt it true dat u come out of depressions nt by ur mom, dad, sibling or any other frnd but just by a 10 min call with a guy who flirts u? wat is wrong wen some one lies to make u happy? ofcourse its effect is for a short period but by den wont u b ready to face ur problem?

thank everybody who flrted u and made u happy....say u love dem and deir lies...!!!!

dis one is dedicated 4 some one i know....and for him "wen the person comes to know dat everything u spoke dosent mean anything but just a lie...den doesnt it hurt? i guess it does....but den she will know dat u care 4 her so u did ur best to make her happy"

take care!

EXPECTATION!!

I know...I know....its a very common thing to blog about....well mine is just from a different aspect....the aspect or the eye through which i see da word "Expectation"
y do u think ppl expect things from us??
bcoz we look over smart? bcoz dey think its easy just expecting? bcoz dey want us to prove we r nothin? y??

well just think.....from whom do u xpect things? from a grl nxt door? from a far-off relative u dont even know? from a person who just walked by??

nooo......

u xpect things from ppl whom u love....from ppl whom u want....ppl who r damn close to u....

isn't it....??

i xpect things frm ppl whom i love....wen i ask u "y dint u call?"  dosent it mean dat i was waiting for ur call???
wen i fight with u....dosent it mean dat i want u to b close to me.....den wats wrong with xpecting??? i expect u to take care of me as i do....am i wrong? i xpect u to love me as i do....am i wrong? i xpect u to bother.....xpect u to reply.....xpect u to think.....xpect u to msg.....damn dosent it mean i need u??? isnt dat an honour am giving u? den y??  y are u not reaching my xpectations??

vinky....!

am i xpecting too much?? does it mean i love u too much.....yes!!!!

well let me tell u no one lives up to ur expectations....no one!!! well i am bit lucky.....i have vinky.....my younger sis....who always lives up to ma xpections....infact exceed every time! its only dis grl and no one else! i dont xpect u to b dat lucky and have a sis like i have....den how....should we stop xpecting....well....is it in our hands?

u obviously know da answer....but wat i found is try very hard and try ur best to reach xpectations ppl have on u.....be it frnds, mom, siblings or love......the more u reach others xpectation the more ppl will reach ur xpectation.....i never reached any one's xpectations....hence no one reaches my xpectations....

dis is wat i say to ma self wen ppl dont reach my xpectations....wen i sit crying....wen ppl hurt me.....
and dont get ppl wrong wen dey xpect things.....remember its an honour.....

let it b ur parents.....wen dey say i want u to bcome a collector.....let b ur sis wen she says....y dont u buy me something......let it b ur friend....wen dey say.....idiot y dint u lift ma call....let it b ur love....wen she says.....i wanted u to say miss u.....just remember dey love us....!!!!!! the bigger the expectation the more dey love!!!!!!

and now.... i EXPECT u to gimme feedbacks!!!! :) :) .